Do u noe hw much i hate myself....

Hi guys.... Hate my life so goddam much.... If u are reading this blog post and u noe who u are.... U should noe that the only reason why i ever went for the road run was cuz of u... And u should also noe that i would not have gone for it if it was not for u... Althogh probably saying this doesnt matter... In the first place it nvr mattered... I nvr knew if u were masking ur feelings or if u really did feel that way... Do u even noe how that feels? Do u even noe anything about how i feel.. Do u even realise that u have caused me to be in so much misery... I did not tell u because, maybe i am not the kind of guy that would break such information to u so directly and causing u to be hurt... Past few days... Worst days of my life since sec 1... Even geting my results bak and seeing that i have improved did not make me feel better but feel worse cause of what u said.... Everything u say.. Do u bother thinking how it would affect others before saying it? Haix... U probably dun read this blog anyways... So those who read.. Thanks for the concerns really appreciate it very much... thanks....