I hate my life... Why must it be so messed up... I wish i could just die .... then my misery would have all been gone....

Everyday the same old thing happens.... Why must everyone seem to dislike me so much.... Wad did i do to cause them to dislike me..... Why must god do this to me.... What have i ever done to him to deserve this.... Sleepless nights day after day after day..... Why cant i just get knocked over by a car.... At least my misery would be gone by then..... Why must it seem as if i am always making the wrong choices in life..... Everytime i make a choice thinking its right..... but always ends up being the wrong choice.... Why must god make me suffer and not just let me die in an accident.... If i die no one would even realise or bother.... So why cant god just let me die..... If only there was someone who actually understands me.... If only there was someone who would not mind what my background is.... If only all these things in the world does not happen to me.... If only..... So many if only in my life... Even the people who are closest to me do not know everything about me.... Everyone seems to be ignoring me as well..... Why should i even be given birth to if all i am is just a burden to everyone else......why am i only good at causing trouble and unhappiness to others....